Thanks

I started as a pathetic student at my prelims, but carried on through my midterms and nearly lost my mind at my finals. All in all I could say that I just had my worse academic semester in my whole college life yet. But not all of it were as bad as it seems. I've met a lot of people and all of them were that good. I really love my Chem and Algebra class and the people I am with there. Also the Computer Programming and Drawing, those subjects were only minors but they really challenged me a lot. I'll be getting my card by our enrollment. I have a couple of subjects that are crucial and might fail. Like my cousin said to me; "Matututo ka sa mistakes mo, alam mo naman talaga kung ano ang dapat gawin. Ang importante matapos mo yung sem." I had made so many mistakes and I am ready to face the consiquences. . .

I also noticed that I have been such a Bible reader eversince I got into that group. They were the ones who helped me heal and guess what I have not been into it for 3 weeks straight. It's also hard sometimes, becuase the urge is still haunting me but my words are far more powerful and capable of rejecting it. I would really want to continue my journey but I have personal reasons why I cut it short. I also felt that I've become even more closer to Him. And what a way to thank Him by playing my guitar at our prayer meeting. Ito pa pala sobrang blessed ang PRYM, the prayer meeting is improving but our performance in it is not important but our faith and responsiblity on the blessings and tasks that are given to us.

I really don't know what to ask for now, except the usual protection, guidance and wisdom. I am happy to where I stand and what I have. I am inspired everytime I read His words which I almost normally do since the encounter; it is enough to brighten up my day. I am always on the right track of my seasons of life. So all I could say for now is thanks be to God and just keep on bringing those challenges up for I know in the end He'll still be at my side no matter what. I may have big problems but God is bigger than it.

Lately, Still On Fire

SHOUT IT OUT:

For some, I think they already knew what are my other co-curricular activities that I do at the University.

Ayoko mag salita ng tapos because usually the opposite happens afterward. But there are some instances that I felt healed my ways and practices in life changed also. Galing talaga ng Niya! Commit ka lang sa kanya lahat ng plano mo magiging successful (Proverbs 16:3)
I hope I would be able to use this sa ministry, there'll come I time but not now I still need to learn. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

FINAL THOUGHT:

This all seem awkward, if you would trace the roots of how did I came up here you would see that they are also problems that were the same reasons of why did I transfer. But what matters is what is happening right now and what are you doing at the time given to you. I am not what happened yesterday. Yes I endured what happened and survived what happened, but I am not what happened yesterday.

I am really happy when more and more people get to know Him and give there all but I am inspired when I see people change there ways. They knew that they had an oppurtunity to change and be healed and they didn't waste that oppurtunity like what Zaccheus did.

Taking Me For Granted

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If there is one thing I hate it is taking me for granted especially my efforts. I woke up at 1:30 am to review, supposedly, for my Algebra but seeing that I only had limited sources to review the lesson I'd skipped I moved on to my Chemistry. When I scanned on our activity from my manual it was one of my favorite experiments back then when I was still at MDC; Acid, Bases and Salts. I only left one question blank because we need an analysis and an observation on the salt. The rest was just balancing and finding the formula of the formed salts. Thanks to my chem book and the internet, I was able to double check if the salt I formulated was correct. But we were the second to pass our work, it will be suspicious if we passed our work 2 hours and 30 min before the class ended, so we let time pass by. But the mdaf***'n SOB insisted that I copied from the group who passed first, nagparinig pa ang walang hiya sa akin by scolding at the first group kung bakit daw sila nagpakopya. Pu** ka! Yung isa nga sa kanila nag ask kung pwede tulungan ko sila sa Aluminum Chloride na yan eh, where in fact I told them that it was easy and that they could do it on there own. Ta** In*, alam ko tong experiment na toh, nagawa ko na yan! At wala akong pakeelam kung kung na-una o nahuli ako, ang importante makita ng mga bulag mong mata na ginawa ko toh! Mangongopya ba ako sa isang tanong na alam ko na, bobo! Leche ka! Tapos pag mag lab lecture tayo sasabihin mo na pangalawa lang kami, na sumunod at nangopya kami, tan* In* ka! Balance ko pa yung equation on the spot sa muka mo, saksakin ko pa sa bibig mo yung mga lecheng acid na ginamit. Kung nangopya ako, sasabihin ko pa sayo kung kanino, isulat ko pa yung pangalan niya sa lab sheet all caps, engineering lettering.

Takte nasama pa ng pagka init ng ulo yung pagkawala ng libro ko sa Chem. Pucha talagang pag nasa mood ako naiingit sa akin yung tan* ina** malas na yan! Maayos na sana ang araw ko kung di lang umepal itong dalawang malas. Desperado ata itong malas na toh na patayin ako eh! Lahat na lang kinukuha sa akin kulang na lang ata eh pati buhay ko.

This day could have been a good day, nakita ko panaman sina Kuya Kim at Donita. Kung hindi lang laking epal itong malas na toh maayos na sana ang lahat, kahit maaga akong nagising, maganda naman yung pag bangon ko.

I won't forever hold on to my other side, I've been carrying this other character of mine back then and I am fully rejecting it ever since I shifted by always starting anew, doubling my efforts, waking up as early as before dawn and studying hard. Now if you are jealous on what and where I am in, you could kiss my a**, because I've been through hell before entering this University and I can say that I deserve being here. I am happy of my new life, anyone or anything against it, back the fu** up!

Thinking of It. . .