bLamE tHe biRds. . . (2nd parable)

I thought that going to the church will be setting my problems at school aside, but yet another problem had occured at KOA. This will not go to pass, it will be put to action immediately! I can't believe that our outing was moved, but at least meron pa rin pero matagal nga lang.

I am having a difficult time with my assignment, studying my research work and reviewing for my pre-midterms. But yet I am ready to push my body and brain to the limit!

Grabe may cell na ako pero papaconvert ko pa, hindi kasi dito binili, sana maayos, hehehe ! ! !

Oh to the new members, especially to Iris! WELCOME TO PRYM ! ! !

REFLECTION:

I would prove to you that I have done this! Can't wait to put you on shame. But I have a back up plan to you. I will prove that you've made a big mistake!

If there is a will there is a way! If things are impossible there are many reasons why is it impossible. I am sorry but you are not the person I've been knowing ever since, things had realy changed quite fast. I had my fate on you, but that was before. But I am not saying that I am against you, infact I am just letting it unfold like I usually do.

There were two birds that are locked up on a cage, inside that cage there were able to do what they want and they live happily inside, having the owner giving them food and drink. Until one day an eagle saw them happily together and was interested with them. He also wanted to share his happiness and stories of flying with them. So the eagle went down and tried to open the cage, but it was locked plus the lock's key hole is so rusted that it won't open. As the birds saw the eagle trying to almost destroy the cage by pushing it towards the edge of the plat form, the female bird said: "Don't destroy it! Leave us alone we are happy living our life together! Do not disturb us!"

"But don't you want to be free? Don't you like to explore new things?"

"There's no need for that for we are satisfied here."

"All I wanted to do is to help."

"Leave us now! I don't care about going out the cage for at least we are here living happily together!" So the eagle left the cage. Years had passed, until the cage is all rusted. Until one day the male mocking bird got tired of being in the cage and said to his partner: "Lets get out to this cage! Look, it is too rusty now that we could peck our way out." But the other insisted and wanted to stay. But the male wanted go out and be open to other birds so he left his partner and pecked his way out of the cage. The female mocking bird blamed herself inside the cage. Every birds that she saw passing by she blamed them one by one that they were the reason why she had problems. Until one day she got old and died inside the cage, while the male mocking bird had met many friends and lived happily with them flying from continent to continent.

wRoNg AccUsAtioN ! ! !

Not on the mood, I am put on shame today and I have to do these freakin' assignments!


REFLECTION
I admit my mistakes and I will find a way to repay them. But being an elder doesn't mean you have to abuse it! I don't believe that you are in that proffesion and I don't know how will the patient survive with you. We are not weak and we are not stupid. We don't hear this words from our parent's mouth, who are you to say this words with your sharp tounge. I don't care about your opinions, all I care about is that you treat us right. If you are an educated man like you say you are, you are not suppose to throw things, give us a painful comments and mock our group. Yes, I don't like my group too, but yours is too much; your making it personal. But how could I even give a complaint to a person that's supported very well. But don't worry I have found a way to avenge myself! I won't rebel don't worry I'll do it on the "paper".

aNgeL oF mInE

I'll never know and will never be

If I would be able to go even further

If I could ever touch or ever see

Your ever lasting smile and laughter

Through the fire I try to keep on fighting

Through the distance I try to keep in touch

Through the rough grounds I continue standing

To those falls that are too many much

I see thy face to the falling sunset

I hear your laughter from the cheers of a child

But yet I am still on a big upset

And I long for your love that's so mild

Please come back, and with me please stay

Take away my sadness that's ruining my day

To this to the Lord I turn and pray

I miss you so bad I hope we could play

cAreLesSnEsS

Bad trip! This sucks! This time I lost my phone! And its for real now. . . Grabe talagang pag dating sa CP talagang minamalas ako. Isang taon lang abot ng cellphone sa akin pansin ko. . .

At school, everything was fine! Eversince I've been talking with her I've been quite free na too. It's like I am in full control of everything, well not all hehehe ayoko magging self centered.

We watched Rizal at Paul's house yesterday, grabe ang haba ng movie, the VCD has 3 CDs and the time frame of a CD is 60 minutes. Well at least busog :)) and may "intermission" commercial bwahahahahahaha =)) ! ! !

REFLECTION

Even when the sun rises up to give light to the world, darkness could still come anytime! It could be in a form of a storm, eclipse or whatever mother nature could give. This things could come anytime without warning. And if you are not carefull or prepared it could take away anything even your life.

Though I tried to let them see the reality between the two of us. I feel that there is already a hidden grudge or strugle with in themsleves. Sometimes I feel guilty when they see us talking. But here's the thing, you are one of my trusted friends, you had touched my life and I don't want you to go faraway from me. But still I am still confuse on what to do. . . For now, we should set our priorities first, lets help each other like what we are doing now. Lets not bother on things that is not suppose to be bothered. Its there problem not ours. . . !

bRavE heArT

Grabe, yung mga prof namin kung mag bigay ng quiz. Yung isa nag dedemanda ng mga pangalan may sitting arrangements pa na nalalaman, yung isa naman pagka haba-haba ay nakakaantok mag quiz. But here's the funny part, I failed those two first quizes. Grabe tapos may quiz nanaman kami sa Phil Lit, hindi ako naka review. Grabe, tapos next week mid terms na namin hindi pa nag bibigay ng pointers. Hay naku ang bilis naman! Sabagay 3 subject lang kami eh

Uy! Nakapasa yung isa dyan sa MaDoCs! Naks naman! Buti hindi ka pinag sabihan sa PE, well kung hindi sila mag sasabi ako na lang. Mag pataba ka! >:P hahahahahaha jokes peace tayo.

Sana sumali ka na sa amin! See you there!

REFLECTION

It's not that I am afraid of him, I just don't want to add another thorn at my back. I don't want any trouble too. But I don't want you to get away from me. Too long that we have been apart because of issues and to him. Let's be steady and keep it cool at all times.

You asked for my help and made a decision to yourself. I am not saying that you are against me for I told you that I am just here to help and give advices but the decision is still yours. You followed your brave heart. From here on you've made a decision, you must know what to do. Don't tell me your confused! You can't back down now. . . But if anything goes wrong, be strong! Remember we are here ready to help get up when you fall.

tHiS wAs UneXpEctEd

I never thought that magiging member na ako ng music pool sa school. Hehehe, thanks to you talaga at nagging myembro na ako at least sa isang organization at MDC. Masaya na ako dun, music pool pa! I tried to join the organization nung 1st Sem pero hindi ako nakakaatend ng meetings nila. Again to you I say thank you very much.

Ang saya ng activity namin nung Saturday sa park, hahaha! Although my plan kinda back fired nung sa apple (sayang hindi sila lima). We had fun by playing with the eggs >:). Lagkit noh!? =)) Lansa pa ( iba yung nasa isip ko ata :)) =)) >:P ) Joke lang!

REFLECTION:

Happiness is like an adrenaline, it can be only used or felt for a little while but after that, sorrow and trials come along like a road that leads to a long and hot dessert. But as you finally find your destination along the blazzing heat. Its like laying on the white sands of a beach resort, down under the shade of a pine tree and beside you is an ice cold drink. Enjoying the view of nature, observing and hearing the waves of the beach and cleaning your medal with a wax while currently wearing it like just like a necklace.

sUmtHin

Ei for those two gals gud luck, kaya nyo yan! Sus kami nga ni partner nakayanan yung project eh kayo pa kaya, hehehe and this one is for recreation lang heheheh. Trip trip pero may patutunguhan.

Grabe kanina sa skul, may nasabi ako di maganda sa fellow 1st year student ko na hindi ko ka section. Hindi ko naman sinasadya :((, sorry if you ever heard me. Promise titinu na ako.

I miss Fishelle, yiheee =))

REFLECTION:

Its good to hear that you have moved on! Keep on doing what you have to do, don't let them get into your way. I am with you always, till the end I'll be your guide. All we have to do is to help and trust each other.

Why do you keep on looking back to the things that are suppose to be on the trunk? Don't you know that all the story had been already ripped from the page and nailed at the bulletin board along with the cut up news papers. When will the hammering stop? When will raging bulls have their rest? When will you give a player his break? Is this really what you wanted? To bring nothing but trouble with in the society? Is this the image that you wanted to bring to the fellowship? Nothing but piercing mouths and echos? We came here for a purpose not to bring chaos. We are here to bring light not to blow it off. We are here as teachers not as rebels.

tO tHe cOuRt "A PaRabLe"

Hmmm. . . Having a summer class is not quite bad at all. I mean first of course I earn a allowance and I am able to save at least a hundred a day. Second, good thing the professors are not boring upon disscussing the lessons, although I have to say that our prof at English 2 is new and she has to improve her styles of teaching, I hope they are able to give us even a little pasyensya hehehe.

REFLECTION:

The man who was seated at the jury, saw that the debate and accusations are growing louder and louder that the crowd had also join the controversy. He tried to calm down and reminded himself that the judge is here to keep things in order. But he noticed that the judge can't no longer control the room. "I can't stand this!" the man said to himself and can't no longer control his emotions. So he finally stood up and went to the center of the court. He shouted to all the people in the court, "Be silent! Your blasphemies had even brought confusion to the young!" And the crowd was silenced and listened to him "I am right, am I not? That you don't even know what you've been hearing and saying lately. I think you don't even understand what's going on? How dare you give complaints to the person that's been bringing us this far. If you were at his position what would you feel? What would you feel if you spilled your time and money to your children and all they do is abuse it or rebel in return but infact all you wanted to do is to give them a good and comfortable life. He does this not for himself but to you because he wants us all to be happy in this society which should really be! Isn't this what they are here for? To give concerns to each and everyone of us? To guide us through the trials of life? And what did you do? You miss interpreted everything and made up a story! If I were you, better say nothing if you are not helping at all or yet better do nothing if you are not involve at all. Fine if you know it all, but better keep things to yourself! I understand all of your concerns but think about this, aren't you even aware of your interventions!? EVEN THEE IS INVOLVE BUT THEE STILL LEADS EVERYTHING TO THE PROTAGONISTS! WHAT MORE TO YOU GUYS WHO ARE NOT REALLY INVOLVE AT ALL!"

hAvE it YoUr wAy!

What a way to end my sem break! We had a party yesterday, the celebrants are those PRYM peeps that had already graduated. Wow congrats guys keep on doing it! Mel sigurado ka na sa Narsing mo!? Hehehe your choice. I had a rematch with Kuya G's mix, tied up na kami. Before I was knocked out at Round 10 but yesterday through urinating points (sorry about that, peace).

Aya I don't care kung sintunado ako! Nasa healing stage palang voice ko nun I just wanted to have fun!

REFLECTION:

Who are you to give such rash judgements! Are you even part of the hearing!? Even I who had become part of it had never judge anything between the parties nor taking sides to anyone!

I know the couple went to you and you to each of us, but it doesn't mean that you have been placed at the band. They went to you maybe becuase they either trust you or they have no one to turn to by now. But you have no right to say that you are pissed off! It is not your story nor mine

Remember what I told you before, it has always been your decision. We are here to guide but the final decision will not be ours but yours. The things that we give and said are not for us but for you. Its okay if you won't listen just don't come running or crying to us and saying you have a problem about it!

You had done enough, its time for them to do the work. It's not your problem to shoulder so why carry it? We are here to guide yes but we should not decide. Let it unfold! Don't listen to what they say, remember, its them who has the problem not you! I had been with you together with the other and the damsell for a long time. So who are they to make up such story... They just want to ride on if you ask me!

For me I have lost my way now... I had failed to such an easy thing for some to do... I am a fool, weak, and only good from the start... Its okay if you wont talk to me fine I'll understand I deserve it anyway... I had lost your trust isn't it? Even if you say we are still friends I had put a scar on you already... You might not admit that your angry, disappointed or upset... Or better yet I am just nothing to you now but a guy who can't even commit a simple commitment...

beTweEn thE LinEs

What a holy week! Compared last year, this holy week was the busiest I ever had. Though I am always out and tired it was all worth it, especially when it is all for Him.

At the Youth, we poured out our voices at Palm Sunday, Holy Thursday, Salubong and the Parish Fiesta. Of course hindi mawawala yung mga kainan and libre hehehe. We also had a animation performance nung Catch Fire, that was before Palm Sunday.

At KOA, we have a new start. First ever KOA Councilors, Kevin and me! New officers, Reynald for President and Amon for Vice President. So far the new assigned officers are taking effect. It has been tested on the holy week masses. All of the masses went well according to plan.

As for me, I have to take the rest of the week off, I have classes na next week, b***s***! Well at least take a look at the good side, hehehe. We should take a good look at the "benefits". Hehehe oh well...

REFLECTION:

You still haven’t learned, my dear. After all the things that we’ve been learning together you still haven’t understand some things. Are you not thinking of your “if(s)” just for a second? Or did you even understand our contract to the society? Even though, you’ve seen these things happen to others as well. Though they had different stories they had only one ending.

You had been our guide through life. You helped us in many different ways. You are really a caring person. But in this case, you’ve done enough. We’ve done enough. Let it unfold. This is what I wanted to do; sometimes a person has to experience downfall before learning how to avoid downfall. But again, this concerns not to a single person, not to the other, not to the guide, not the self but to all. Sometimes a little mistake would cause a big impact to others; it would spread like a virus. I don’t want to see all those hard work, time and sacrifices go to waste.

And the man said: "I have been putting my trust on you always, why is it so hard for you to trust in me. All I ever did in life is not all for me alone! I never said that you would understand; why I would let understand to such a close a mind."