I am not on the mood. . . This cold is irritating me a lot at marami pa akong kailangan gawin. S***! Takte pressure, pressure! Ahhh grabe!
REFLECTION:
Lately I've been thinking, why do I need to endure this s*** if there is an easy way. I have two doors in front of me right now. The first one is I may continue and pursue on my goal and the second one is just to give it up for a while and be on my league.
The first one is really difficult to achieve but its a short cut to get what I need, the catch is, lately its not going on my turns. No matter how hard I try, nothing seems happening. What's even worse I am falling even more and more to the cliff I am hanging on.
The second is quite easy, this is something what I really am. I would be doing something that I could live and die for instead. But going through this door is like throwing my ticket to the bin. My goal will be somewhat out of the way. I would really like to talk about this with my parents, but we would again argue about it, mostly it would be about money. Now I am also thinking of just going on but like I said the situation is getting worse.
This so frustrating, I should have shifted last year. And doing this now would mean another adjustment plus I may have to review all over again. Gah! Decisions, decisions! This is so f****** me up! Sometimes I am getting unstable just because of this! You, what would you do if you are in this predicament!?
The first one is really difficult to achieve but its a short cut to get what I need, the catch is, lately its not going on my turns. No matter how hard I try, nothing seems happening. What's even worse I am falling even more and more to the cliff I am hanging on.
The second is quite easy, this is something what I really am. I would be doing something that I could live and die for instead. But going through this door is like throwing my ticket to the bin. My goal will be somewhat out of the way. I would really like to talk about this with my parents, but we would again argue about it, mostly it would be about money. Now I am also thinking of just going on but like I said the situation is getting worse.
This so frustrating, I should have shifted last year. And doing this now would mean another adjustment plus I may have to review all over again. Gah! Decisions, decisions! This is so f****** me up! Sometimes I am getting unstable just because of this! You, what would you do if you are in this predicament!?
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