Buti naman hindi ako na late dito sa subject na ito. May mga gamit ako nakalimutan pero hindi masyado pa kailangan yun. Umulan ng violation slips kanina sa RLE. The CIs are very freakin' strict, takte. Kamuntik na nga ako mabigyan eh, just because of my bigote. Yun pa nung lunch, we are only allowed to take it for 30 minutes. Eh ang dami-dami naming nag RLE, so puno yung canteen. Ayaw man lang mag pasuyo (dun sa mga nakapila kung kayo kaya nasa sitwasyon ko anong gagawin nyo!? It's easy to say na pipila kayo! Tignan lang natin ha, napamura kita tuloy ng di oras). So I have to go to Bluewave KFC pa, (dun sa mga nakasakay sa jeep na di ko kilala, I am terribly sorry kung nasasagi o nasisiko ko kayo ah hindi ko sinasadya yun, wala lang talaga ako sa mood) nag take out ako ng lunch, tapos pumunta ako sa treats to buy a shave (takte P34.00 ano yun ginto yung blade?). Tapos while eating my lunch nag lakad ako pabalik ng school. Exactly tapos na ako mag lunch pagdating sa gate. Punta agad ako sa Fundamentals room, buti wala pa yung mga CIs; so I had spare time to go to the washroom and shave. But make no mistake, masaya matuto sa RLE ang ayaw ko lang yung pagkahigpit nila.
REFLECTION:
I had the first taste of being desperate today. Desperate to eat, to go home, to excell and to have peace of mind. I just wonder if this is just the beggining, what more in the near future. I realy need to change. I really need to learn how to be independent, somehow to survive with my own effort. I really need to focus. What I fear is that one day I might go crazy learning too much, breaking down, gone mad or might collapse in school, home, or on the road because of too much pressure and stress. I hope that these things doesn't happen. . .
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